ALL ABOUT YOU

It is your birthday,

your smile appears in my mind

warming the cold spot in my soul

giving me comfort

giving me peace of mind

knowing you are still with me.

Here is why I do think you never left,

when I am a little down

thirsty of your presence

in need to organize my thoughts

and calm my nerves

I drink a diet Pepsi

the bitter sweet flavor,

the fizz tingling on my lips,

reminds me of your kiss.

When my self-esteem hits bottom

I take a hot shower until my skin turns pink,

and the fog reaches the ceiling

and the mirror starts to cry

I turn the water faucet to cold

this switch is like a start jumping and old car.

For a while I keep a bottle of water in the car,

bubble gum inside the glove compartment

even if all I drink is coffee all day long

and I don’t clean my car as I used to.

I am learning to text on the phone

even when I know I am ruining my grammar

by braking full sentences into small pieces

and I want to LOL about my stupidity

but, I realize I don’t have energy anymore.

For no reason at all

I keep asking for mustard in a restaurant

I don’t use it, but it keeps me company.

Baby

it is all about you,

you never left

and even if I don’t see you anymore

you are here with me

in every inch of my body

in every cell of my brain.